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Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Personality traits

Your personality type: "Harmony-seeking Idealist"
Quietly forceful, original and sensitive. Tend to stick to things until they are done. Extremely intuitive about people and concerned for their feelings. Well-developed value systems which they strictly adhere to. Well-respected for their perserverence in doing the right thing. Likely to be individualistic, rather than leading or following.
Careers that could fit you include:
Counselors, clergy, missionaries, teachers, medical doctors, dentists, chiropractors, psychologists, psychiatrists, writers, musicians, artists, psychics, photographers, child care workers, education consultants, librarians, marketeers, scientists, social workers.

-my brain refuse to accept more than what i have read
-letting it rest through personality test.
-Well, it's not that unrelated to what i read just a moment ago.
-If you wish to do the personality test, you can visit this site.
-Havr fun =D

Tuesday, November 27, 2012


The 'Thank You' phrase was not enough to show my gratefulness for having a wonderful and awesome team.  These overwhelmed feelings, could not be expressed through the simple phrase of 'Thank You'. How could I repay for your kindness? All I could do is to pray that Allah will rewards everyone with His merciful and kindness. May Allah rewards us for the hardworks and sincerity. May this world would be a better place in the near future. May our objectives reached to the end of the world.

For every single of you are the factor for the event ended successfully, despite the challenges that occur during the event. Such great experiences, where could I gain if not from this event? Meeting you guys are not a mistakes, it was a destiny created by Allah, for us to learn from each other, to support each other, and to spread and shares the ideas with other people.

I may not express myself very well to everyone of you. However, I would like to say that, I already miss you guys even more than yesterday. I would not idle around just because I miss everyone because, the feeling of inspiration, aspiration, and motivation would keep me moving forward through the challenges that I will have to face in the near future. And hope that it will last till I rest in peace.

Memoirs of Birds
National Economics Student (NESt) Conference
17-18 November 2012

Monday, November 26, 2012

"This is a Hope of Pleasure..."

May your Pressure,
Be changed to pleasure,
That you will receive treasure,
In great measure.

It was hard to describe everything about the recent event. How should I describe the most precious moments in my life through out the four-year of studies at this university. I learnt a lot. From zero to hero. I gain so much. I made mistakes yet the teams are so wise and nice to advise me. I have done somethings before I graduate. The decision that I had made in the previous post, to not regretting my remaining life as a student in this university is almost fulfilled. I have made a history. I have become a part of history, and proud of it.

Hopefully, this brotherhood, this chemistry, this relationship will last forever. We will meet again, whether it is in the same roof or in any where in this world. For even if we are far away, we still live under the same blue sky. The same bright sun and light moon. I am thankful to my LORD for giving me hope and guide me to meet these wonderful people. I do not wish to let it go.

For the greater good, For humanity.

National Economics Student (NESt) Conference
17-18 November 2012

Wednesday, May 9, 2012


akhirnya, tiba lagi kepenghujung. tinggal setahun lagi. tak lama dah. Semoga dipermudahkan-Nya. Berfikir-fikir. Dapat apa di uia? tak dapat apa di uia? tertanya-tanya. Ada lagi perkara yang nak dilakukan sebelum bergelar graduan ijazah sarjana muda?

berfikir secara matang. biarpun pada asalnya tercampak di uia tanpa rela. paksa rela. dengan rasa kecewa. membawa segala rasa pesimis memasuki gerbang uia. mahu keluar juga dengan rasa yang sama? tidak. sama sekali tidak.

mereka membuka mata hati saya. melapangkan dada seluas-luasnya. hikmah yang cukup besar. nilai yang berbeza buat setiap individu. menyesal? tidak. Alhamdulillah, tidak lagi.

dan sekali lagi, Allah telah memberi jawapan kepada segala perancangan-Nya yang maha sempurna:

'Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.' 
- Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

saya mahu melakukan sesuatu yang luar biasa. lebih biasa daripada biasa. timelinenya ialah setahun. berjaya atau tidak, itu perkara kedua. pertama-tama, mesti buat. supaya bila keluar dari gerbang uia, saya tersenyum puas. menangis kegembiraan.

i am a lone ranger disini. lebih sendiri dari bersama. lonely? rarely. sudah biasa. berteman, tapi tak bersama selalu. saya tak ada kumpulan atau kata lain geng, tapi saya ada ramai adik-adik baik hati, manja, peramah, penghibur, pendengar. saya tak ada kumpulan atau kata lain geng, tapi adik-adik saya mengajar saya pelbagai perkara. directly or indirectly. keluarga besar saya, persatuan itu.

nak kata menyesal lagi?tidak lagi. Alhamdulillah. jalan-jalan ini sudah terukir indah. jalan-jalan ini sudah mekar bau wangian bunga-bungaan. jalan-jalan ini dilihatnya menarik terhias cantik. tinggal lagi bertemu penghujungnya.

Our meetings may not meant to be forever,
Our meetings may not ended up, us together,
Our meetings are for me to learn something from you,
And you learn something from me,
It may ended up us parting,
Never meet again,
But, the memories are forever ours,
Living inside our heart.

Friday, April 27, 2012


They are so great!Awesome!Cool!
It's so frustrating!
Every step I walk,
They outrun me

Hastily walking towards the goal is no good
There will be a huge hole if i were to walk faster and hurriedly.
It would tire me more than walking step by step.
I want to be on-par with them

I also don't want them to slow down their pace
Just for me
Ahh! If only they would turn around, checking on me
From time to time.
Helping me solving the puzzle.
Again, too much help could do no good to me.

This journey,
I don't want to be a burden to them.
But, I want to be selfish
Wanting them to help me, yet wanting them to not helping me
Yeah, a conflict within oneself

Truthfully, I don't want to be part of Tall Poppy Syndrome.

まえ すすめ!!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

beat the devil

I am me,
You are you.
We are two different person,
But we can be united under one roof.
Accept the differences and appreciate each other
Learn from the differences
We can find the greater goods from it.

p/s: i want to be a better person. もっと.もっと.もっと!

Saturday, April 7, 2012

A Little Thought

Bismillah wa hamdanlillah...

Two days ago (Thursday, April 5), i almost got into an accident. It happen so fast that i was so shocked. Alhamdullilah, during that time there were no cars around me that might lead me to collided with them. Really, Alhamdulillah. I thought I was a gonner.

Well, its all my fault. No doubt: First, it was at night. Second, I was kinda out of mind. Something happen and I stuck thinking about it non-stop. Third, I was driving quite fast ('s really fast actually, 80km/h on the way to iiu).

I was driving to iiu through the school route not highway. So I'm not supposed to drive that fast with that out-of-mind state. No...not crazy. I was going to break as the traffic light turn red, but the car somehow did not stopped but shift to the left side and almost collided with divider. It really happen so fast that i could not fathom the situation for a moment. I could see from the riders' reaction how anxious they were. There are not much cars but motorcycles.

For one minute i took a deep breath, calming myself before I started driving again. Turning around slowly at iic and went to my final destination, iiu. All the way to iiu, the only thing that i could thought about is how HE still gives me a chance to live and repent all the sins that i had done. If HE gonna took my life at that moment, I might collided with divider or even any cars around me. And I might really be death by now.

It is really scary. The incident.

HE really send me a message through this incident. HE really made me think and think, over and over again. Until now, i still felt the sensation. I was afraid to drive, yet I have to. HE does knew everything. HE heard anything. HE saw the whole thing in this world. Never miss anything. HE can twist even the tiniest thing that we could never imagine of. HE can save and harm whatever HE wants.

Though, we, one of the little thing HE created, felt arrogant with the little power HE let us borrowed. We thought we could do anything. 

HE is the Most Gracious and Most Merciful. HE remind us when we forgot, HE guide us when we lost. HE gave us hope when we felt despair. HE helps us in many way. And we appreciate and thanks HIM so little.

And I truly glad for I still alive. Alhamdulillah, thanks for giving me another chance to chase for more reward. Save me, save my family, friends and all muslim in the world. amin

Monday, March 26, 2012

Ilmu itu dimana-mana!

Nadya berlari-lari anak mendapatkan lif. Jam di tangan sudah menunjukkan jam 8.35 pagi. Nadya sudah lambat lima minit dari masa meeting yang ditetapkan. Dua hari lepas, Nadya menerima mesej memaklumkan meeting pertama untuk projek yang Nadya sendiri kurang maklum. Tapi, tidak pula Nadya hendak bertanya lanjut akan meeting ini. 'Yang pasti, bukan perkara-perkara yang bercanggah dengan undang-undang.' Nadya tersenyum dengan anggapannya sendiri. Nadya melangkah masuk ke dalam lif bila bunyi 'ding' menyentak lamunannya. Masa terus bergrak tanpa menunggu siapa-siapa. Nadya mengerling jam di tangan, sambil tangannya menekan butang empat. Sejurus pintu lif tertutup, Nadya bersandar di dinding lif. Lelah berjalan dari mahallah belum kurang. Sambil menunggu lif berhenti di tingkat empat, Nadya bercongak-congak assignment  yang masih menunggu di biliknya. 'Harap-harap meeting ini tidak lama.'

Sejurus pintu lif terbuka, Nadya cepat-cepat keluar dan menuju ke head quarters, destinasi meeting-nya hari ini. Melangkah kaki ke dalam head quaters, Nadya melihat dua jejaka dan seorang perawan menunggu. Masing-masing masih sibuk dengan kerja masing-masing. Tidak pula kelihatan sedang berbincang seperti yang sepatutunya sekiranya meeting sudah bermula. Nadya malu sendiri. Sudahnya dia mencuri masa mereka. 

"Minta maaf lambat..." hanya itu yang Nadya boleh ungkapkan. Dia terus mengambil tempat di sebelah Sabrina. Nadya bersalaman dengan Sabrina, sambil menghadiahkan sebuah senyuman.

"Okaylah, kita mulakan meeting kita dulu...yang lain akan menyusul kemudian. Sepatutnya ada lagi empat orang lagi yang terlibat. Haziq dan Safa' tidak dapat hadir hari ini. Anisah dan Amir lambat sikit." Huzaifah menerangkan duduk perkara sekaligus memberitahu komiti yang terlibat untuk projek 'rahsia' ini. 

Mendengarkan nama-nama yang sudah dikenali ini, Nadya tersenyum lega. 'Insya Allah, mudahlah untuk bergerak dengan mereka.' Meeting pun bermula dengan bacaan Ummul kitab Al-Fatihah. Kemudian, Huzaifah menerangkan tentang projek 'rahsia' ini.

"Agenda utama pagi ini untuk membincangka projek 'rahsia' kita...." Huzaifah sudah masuk ke mode seriusnya.

Dan seterusnya, perbincangan semakin hangat dalam 'membedah' dan mengkaji baik buruk projek 'rahsia' ini. Nadya tekun mendengar dan sesekali memberi buah fikiran. Tapi, acapkali Nadya terpegun dan tertegun mendengar perdebatan antara Huzaifah dan Fahmi. 'Masya Allah, betapa banyaknya perkara baru dan revision yang aku boleh dapat dari perdebatan ini. Terasa ceteknya ilmu yang berada didadaku.'

Akhirnya, perangkaan dijalankan. Melihat projek 'rahsia' ini boleh pergi dengan lebih jauh dan manfaat yang akan diperolehi oleh masyarakat kampus daripada projek 'rahsia' ini lebih banyak daripada kos yang diperlukan untuk melaksanakannya, kami bersepakat untuk bergerak, bersama-sama menjayakan projek ini.

Untuk pertama kalinya Nadya menghadiri meeting yang memakan masa hampir lima jam. Tapi, bagi Nadya, sepanjang hampir lima jam itu, tidak pula dirasakan sia-sia. Setiap saat terisi dengan mempelajari perkara-perkara baru. Memberi semangat kepadanya untuk menghadapi assignment-assignment yang menunggunya di balik pintu bilik, di atas meja.

Ya, Nadya akui, ilmu bukan sahaja boleh didapati dari bilik-bilik tertutup denga guru di hadapan, malah dari perbincangan-perbincangan santai sehinggalah perbincangan-perbincangan serius. Ilmu bukan sahaja boleh didapati dari para alim yang lebih dahulu mengenal dunia, tetapi, dari adik-adik riang gembira, yang ditemui di kafe, di tepi makmal komputer dan juga dalam persatuan-persatuan seperti persatuan yang Nadya ikuti. Ilmu tidak pernah terhad dan kadang-kadang dia datang dalam bentuk yang kita tidak tersangka-sangka. Ilmu bukan sahaja dari buku, tapi dari pemerhatian, dari pengalaman.

Nadya insaf. Pulang sahaja dari meeting, banyak perkara baru yang Nadya perolehi. Masih banyak kerja di dunia ini. Masih banyak komitmen yang menanti. Nadya bermuhasabah lagi hari ini. Peringatan-Nya datang lagi mengetuk pintu hati Nadya. Nekad Nadya, dia akan berusaha bersama komiti yang lain bagi menjayakan projek 'rahsia' mereka ini. Apa projek 'rahsia' ini? Nanti-nantilah Nadya ceritakan.

Monday, March 5, 2012

HIkari E~ (Towards The Light)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

僕は今 さがしはじめた 水しぶきあげて
あふれだす情熱を胸に どこまでも行くよ
まだ見ぬヒカリ 求め

夏色太陽が ココロの帆をゆらせば
(fly away glum blue sea...)
あたらしい世界への 扉を開く合図
(fly away glum blue sky...)
波間にゆれてる 絶望を抜けて
水平線の向こう側 目指して

僕は今 さがしはじめた 水しぶきあげて
あふれだす情熱を胸に どこまでも行くよ
まだ見ぬヒカリ 求め

きまりきった毎日と ありふれた雲の流れ
(flying over sea of love)
君にも映ってる 知るはずもない未来
(fly away endless blue...)
変わらないことで 傷つかなくても
それじゃ夢も希望さえもない さぁ行こう

僕はなぜ さがしてるんだろう 何がほしいんだろう
動き出す世界の中へ ココロして行くよ

僕はなぜ さがしてるんだろう 何がほしいんだろう
あふれだす情熱を胸に どこまで行ける?

僕は今 さがしはじめた 水しぶきあげて
あふれだす情熱を胸に どこまでも行くよ
まだ見ぬ光 求め
その 向こうへ

It's been so long..really long since I last update my dearest blog. Thank Lord that my Shiroi Asus is healthy, back at my side. Though, still I could not update as much as i wished to. Been hooked up with this song for sometimes now...inspired me to go through this messy life.

Will update real soon, after i clean-up all the mess. Thank you so much
Love you always.

Monday, January 2, 2012

you were there

Sometimes I lost track
Sometimes I blind
Because you were there
I was save.
Because you were there
I saw light
Stay with me
Be by my side
And I will always return back