Anjakan Usia?

Tuhan,
Untuk umurku yang semakin meningkat
Aku menangis terkenang diriku makin menjauh
Sungguh,
Hayat ini bukan pengukur keimanan
Meningkat seiringan
Istighfarku,
Agar aku ketemu jalan pada-Mu
Jalan menjadi kerinduan selalu
Dan
Kekuatan itu hanyalah dari-Mu
Tuhan,
Kupohon hidup ini terus dalam rahmah-Mu
Agar matiku Engkau redhai

Rant

Mencari ilham dan sumber isnpirasi
Saat kau dah kaku menulis
Saat kau kekok menghasilkan coretan

...and when everything felt so numb, even to read.
This book is closed to heart, for whatever reasons and meaning.

"...Ya Allah, let me live as long as life is better for me, and take my life if death is better for me."
-quoted-

Ya, semoga tidak terhenti disini. Mencari dan mencapai impian.

Because the biggest dream is eternal happiness here and hereafter.

Live well or live hell?
We choose

Mayday

Even after an exhausting day
The brain kept thinking
The soul is restless

Please let me find peace
Over the body that overwork
Over the brain that so much noises
Over the soul that so thirst

2019

Mencari kembali rentak dan langkah
Bukan mudah untuk memulakan
Aduh
Sungguh canggung dirasakan

Harus ada permulaan
Harus ada tekad
Harus terus mengorak
Harus terus bergerak

Mujahadah itu pahit
Tapi mudah bila bisa istiqamah

Tuhan,
Ku pohon kekuatan
Ku pohon kesabaran
Untuk tahun penuh debaran

Catatan permulaan tahun 2019

A closure

Perhaps this gonna be my last posting in 2018.

Will be welcoming new year with new situation and hopefully this is the best.

I could no longer able to continue there even if the offer is bigger. It no longer gives me satisfaction and enjoyment.

I am anxious and nervous. For various reasons. Almost break down.

But I hope next year is going to be much better. Yes, with big HOPE.

Screwed what other people thinks.
Please let me focus on my life, because am totally exhausted.

Welcome 2019 with bigger HOPE.

Frontliner

The Real Battle